I saw him the first time after 5 days.. it didn't take 10 minutes and i started crying again. I hate myself for that. I hate crying in front of him, it makes me weak and voulnerable. I had so much to talk and so many questions but I could't ask even half of it. My mouth was dry and everytime he looked at me, I cried again.
He told me he wants to try to love me again, that I'm not worth giving up. I don't know what to think because he gave me no reason for the Change of his Feelings. He said he's sure that we can work it out, if we both try. What did I do wrong? Why do I have to work on our relationship which I think was great?!
Furthermore I don't know if I can handle seeing him next time. I'm anxious that I will cry again but a break would be the last Thing I want right now..! For now, I have to clear my head and distract myself with work..